My roller coaster life?

My life is like sitting on a roller coaster. My every day can have countless time of up and down. I can be at the top in this minute and at the bottom at the next minute. My life goes this way. I know BUT don't know what's pulling me up and down all the time. I know or don't know? I also don't know. Why? I also don't know. LOL!!! What a life?


I'm standing on my own feet, steadily. Although there's a lot of "something" that is dragging me, I don't want them to be the burden in my life. Starting from now on, I'll try to lift and leave them behind, bury them somewhere deepest. I don't want those to disturb my studies, I want to achieve my targets! I guessed I've learned the lessons. Claimed Term1 result back. And it sucks to the max in my life. Disappointed on my performance. It sucks. No other word could replace except SUCKS!! Damnnn!! IT SUCKS!!! )): Felt time is wasted, money is wasted. Everything is wasted. Such a failure in life.

Lessons learned, it's time to change.
Give me strength.